Wednesday, July 18, 2012

The Waiting Game

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                           Warm fresh bread from our rehearsal dinner, taken by my friend Kaitlyn.

I really love that song. This month has been a month of projects, my life being one of them. In my short existence of 25 years you would think I would have learned my lesson about plans. I like to plan out my life. I make the plans so far in advance that nothing short of an earthquake can shake me off my path. And then I forget what happened the last time my plans fell through. What ended up happening instead was always better. But I still get hung up on the future.

And now, as I feel very strongly that I am not supposed to go ahead with my newest career plans, the ones I've had for the past year, as I feel that I am supposed to not have a plan, to wait, to see what's's scary. 

I want so badly to get out my notebook and start furiously scribbling; start my own business, turn my Etsy site into a million dollar profit, buy a fixer upper house, take an online medical writing course, write a novel...I feel God saying, chill out.


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My sister, Cate, wrote me a letter from Canada, saying that it had been on her heart to pray for me. She wrote that she has been struggling with what is next for her after she graduates from high school. Cate is very artistic; she composes piano pieces that bring me to tears, makes delicate jewelry out of clay and takes beautiful pictures. Her future may not be what the world thinks it should be and I am proud of her for charting her own course. In her letter she wrote that she has been reading Psalm 4: 

"In your anger, do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Offer right sacrifices and trust in the Lord.

She gave me her interpretation of that verse:

"When you are frustrated that you don't know where you are going, do not worry (sin). When you are at a stop (in your bed), search your heart and be silent before God. Offer praises, worship him and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ."

I thought that was beautiful. 

In the back of my mind, I think I know what I want next. But even then I will have to wait. And so here I am. Waiting. Feeling more at peace without a plan than with one. Imagine that.

Meanwhile, in between working and waiting, I have been busy with some projects. 

Witt has been helping me paint this birdcage that I borrowed from my Mom. It was originally white and growing up we usually had a parakeet or two inside. I am thinking of getting a parakeet but birds really don't interest me that much. You can't cuddle with a parakeet. So I might just keep this for decoration.

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My friend, Adam, gave me this book filled with wall paper samples from Lowes, where he works. First of all, who knew wall paper had gotten so cool? I remember dropping the wall paper scraper and splitting my toe in half when I was ten. The wall paper I was helping take down in our kitchen was cream colored and sprawling with apples and fruit and weird vines and a border. Not cool. I love these modern and chic colors and I love that I can recycle these samples and use them in my store. 

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A finished wall-paper project on Etsy.

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I want to leave you with a few links that I love right now:

I absolutely adore this blog post here. It brought tears to my eyes. I'm glad I'm also married to a real man.

I also really really want to make these amazing chocolate mojito cheesecake cake pops at Sprinkle Bakes. I'm thinking they might need to be on the menu for my sister's baby shower in September.

My sister, Mary just got engaged. I'm so happy for her and Andrew. Also, planning a wedding for next May is going to be fun and crazy. It will be an outdoor affair and I love these signs that Witt could easily make. I think this pinterest pin sums up the wedding beautifully.

I have been learning about fermented vegetables, they have such health benefits. Here is Cathy and I spending a day making them. They are really delicious and so good for you.

I will be back soon with a recipe for you! Have a happy and peaceful end of summer. Ok, it's not quite the end, but I admit I am waiting with baited breath for fall and the first crisp leaf. Oh yes.

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